My cat died and I feel empty

Last Saturday, my cat disappeared and I never saw him again. At first, I did not think of it.  Not knowing that it would be his last day on earth. That morning, he slept on my bed like a baby.  I even checked on him if he was alright.  That afternoon, I was doing some catch-up with work when he came out from my room and saw him flinched from his long mid-afternoon sleep. That night, he never came back.  Usually, I would shake his cat food bottle to signal him to come home to his mother but to no avail, he never showed up.  I was a little worried as he always went home and being a house cat, he never wondered far from where I lived.

You see, he was born in my room.  I taught him how to use a litter box, and I taught him how to be sweet with Tawas, the other neighbor’s cat who loves to wonder by my home. Every time I would leave the house, he would always welcome me when I came back.  I was his mother.  I treated like my own.  To some, this might be trivial but not to me.  He was my world.  He was special. He knew when I was happy.  He knew when I was sick or down.  He knew me inside and out.

On Sunday, I went for a short errand.  When I came back, my landlord mentioned seeing a dead cat on the middle of the street that morning. He said he poked it. According to him, he did not recognize the cat.  I wished he told me earlier. I could have said my last good-bye and gave him a decent burial. Never saw again. He just never came back.

Never did I anticipate the pain of losing a pet that I cared for since birth.  He will be missed.  When I get a chance and find a carbon copy of my chubby, sweet, and endearing cat, I will adopt.

Rest in peace MEDYAS! I will always love you.

24 Comments Add yours

  1. andy1076 says:

    So sorry to hear about your loss Jennifer 😦 😦 sending you warm deep loving hugs..!

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  2. supernova1c says:

    Thinking of you, Jennifer. Heart rending.
    Hugz from James.


    1. Thank you James. ;(


  3. Karen Wan says:

    I am sorry to hear of your loss. When my first cat died, (Charlie) I was devastated, and I still have a difficult time when my animal companions pass from this world. My consolation is that I believe I will see them again some day. I also get “messages” from my animals, particularly Charlie. May you receive consolations as time passes, and the pain eases.


    1. Thank you so much. Same here, my other cat even sounds like my cat. From a noisy to a sweet cat.


    1. Thank you. Its been a month now and it feels like, he is still around.


  4. nutsfortreasure says:

    I know that horrible feeling all too well I am so sorry for your loss HUGS


    1. Thank you so much.

      I have this cat. When my cat disappeared, my other cat started mimicking like him. His meow – his every action. He is now a gentler cat compared to before when he used to be irritating and noisy.

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      1. nutsfortreasure says:

        How wonderful he must feel your loss HUGS

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      2. He is…That cat is amazing. 🙂

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  5. I am sorry for your loss. Same thing happened to me when I was a kid, our cat just left and never came back. I have never heard about him or seen him since then. Hope all is well for you.


    1. Thank you Michael. I am good but nothing can take him back. I never expected that he will be forever away.


  6. Alison says:

    Hi Jennifer,

    i Am Sorry for the lost of your kitty.. You know my dear until now i am Devastated when my Budi Jordan left me just last last week October 28/2014, hit by Car or motor i really dunno who was that idiot hearltess driver. when on of our Neighbor knocked our door said that theres one laid Cat on the Road just infront of our house i right away run out to check if whos cat? when my mother take him inside our yard warm and not movin oh God i hug him and shake him a lil calling his name hoping he was still alive bcoz he is still warm and no wound but suddenly blood came fr his mouth i think its Brain injury and caused him dead..then i started to kiss him and cried i was really shocked and i d k what to do on that very moment..he left me in an isntant with no signs and everything Oh God he was a Healthy, fat Handsome cat,Adorable,Sweet and has an angelic big beautiful green eyes.i miss how he look at me eye to eye and let me feel the loved he has for me as his mother the unconditional Loved from a Beautiful Soul that once Trust me and Love me with all of his heart i knew it.. he was Special he has a talent that others cat has not comparing but i could not even see his attitude on the other cats. i miss cuddling my budi Jordan..bite my hands with his lovebite full of love and trust..i still have 3cats left.. should i say his siblings they grew up together..but my Jordan baby was an adopted cat of the Mom’s cat the mother of these 3left cats. also beautiful cats as he but not as how sweet and talented as he was ..its been 6days i am still broken,i cried a river and hoping to see my budi Jordan in my Dream.. it hurts.. he is 1 year old and half a very happy and healthy Sweet kitty ive ever had.. i will forever loved him, and he will always be remembered and i will keep him safe in my heart forever i wish God will Give me a cat like my jordan. he was an angel sent from up above and them just left me out of the blue.. i know he now in heaven happy playing with angels.. Jordan came to me out of the blue while i was busy taking care of newly born 3kitties i keep him idk fr where or who own baby Budi Jordan when he came to our yard like a lost lil cat so i keep him and let hi be with others but as he grew i really admired how beautiful handsome cat is he.. he was indeed an angel came and after one year left me now i am totally devastatee for his lost 😦 as i wrote u this message i cannot control my tears..a Beautiful Soul came to me out of the blue and left me after one year in an instant with no signs i wish i still had him i love him soo much forever and always 😦

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    1. So sorry for your lost. He was my very first pet. When he disappeared, my heart sunk so deep. Never knew that was possible. Cried and cried. It has been 3 months, I still call out his name. I now moved and my new pet has the same white looking sucks on his feet but she is now a girl. I feel that the cat is the reincarnation of my baby. My love for him, will never die. Stay strong. If you need a friend, feel free to contact me anytime.


  7. Alison says:

    Aww yes my Dear and i Never knew Anything could Hurt so Bad.. i miss my baby Budi Jordan a Beautiful Soul who once was mine and left me in an instant.. i feel so empty and devastated but that’s life… It hurts he will be forever live and safe in my heart.. i love my baby kitty but i know he os happy now in heaven

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    1. Thank you for following me. Same here, to this day I still think of him. He was such a dear cat. He will forever be missed.


  8. Alison says:

    Thank you for listening my Dear.. i appreciate it… il forever loved my Budi Jordan it hurts but what to do… thanks dear my warm hugs fly out to U.God bless always mwah mwah…

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    1. No problem. I dont mind. Sometimes people miles away are the ones that help you more than the one that are closes to you. Take care and your cat is looking after you in cat heaven.


  9. Alison says:

    Welcome and thanks for The warm welcome here on ur page mwah! hope our Cats now will meet in heaven and feel nothing but Everlasting hapiness.

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    1. I hope so too Alison. FYI, what country are you from?


  10. Alison says:

    email me my dear or add me on ur ym by the way am just here from nearby..wink 😉😉


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